Take Me to the River

Take Me To the River

Yesterday I returned from a journey by slow boat.  It was exotic. I saw wild animals and birds. I smelled the ripening earthy smells of plants, the cleansing palate of the water.  I watched the weather as it rolled across the sky during the day.  It was invigorating and revitalizing.

The most amazing part for me was that the journey took place through my own city.

In my city, there is a big river that flows right through the middle of it.  In fact, the river was the main reason the city was built here.  The river was the main method of travel when the city was built.  It also supplied the city’s water, and even food and furs.  But as the city grew, and roads replaced rivers, its bounty was forgotten.  Now it is only used recreationally, and only by a few.

The river still flows through the entire city though, even if few remember that.  It is usually ignored or worse, used as a dumping ground for waste.  The water is poisoned with sewage and chemicals.  Even though the river is largely ignored,  it still supplies the entire city with all of its water – the elixir of life.

The River of “Higher Self”

Why do I care about this river so much?

Because, to my shame I had forgotten how amazing the river is.  After my boat trip, I realized that I didn’t need to go to a foreign place to have an adventure in the natural world.  This experience was available to me in my own backyard.

The river was patiently waiting for me to remember how great it was.  It was simply flowing in my city, like it always had.  The river was there, just like our Higher Selves are there, waiting for us to access it, to remember how great the “real us” is.

We forget that our Higher Self is always there, flowing through us.  It will always be there even if we ignore it, poison it, or can’t remember where to find it.  It will always be there.  That river of Higher Self is the real us, and we are it.

We forget this River.  Just like we forget that we don’t need to be “prettier”, “thinner”, “smarter”, or anything that is not us, but closer to the ever elusive ideal.  We only need to be the most authentically ourselves.  We just need to go inside, take whatever we really are, and be more of whatever that is.  That is our standard – the most authentic who we really are.

The river of our Higher Self, is that part of us that is Source.  It makes each individual “us” one with the Divine.   That Higher Self is always there in our lives, it is just that we have first learned to ignore it, and then forgot how to get back to it.

This Higher Self is the first thing that gave our lives meaning.   As babies we simply knew that the Universe was a fascinating place.  Since we were still close to Source, we didn’t need to be reminded of it.  We were still shining like the tiny pieces of the Divine spark that we were.  We didn’t need to “try” to be who we really were.  Over time though, we eventually “matured” into adults.  Like this city, we learn to ignore the life-giving river.

We let reason take precedence over our natural instincts and intuition.  We forget the unique “me” of who we really are, and believed what the world told us about ourselves.  We choose to believe the lies about ourselves reflected back to us from others, over the deep knowledge of us that resides inside ourselves.

Go Back to the River

The river is still the thing that gives us life, whether we know it or not.  It is life-giving and restorative, and yet we are often unaware of where this life quality comes from.  We often hunger for it, but cannot take advantage of it because we cannot remember what it is or where we find it.

Even though this river flows right through us, and is part of us, most of the time we are too lazy or forgetful to get to it.  And yet without it, we feel lost, and sad, and depressed.  If we could remember that all we have to do, is walk the short distance that separates us from the edge of that river, we could be at that river again in the blink of an eye.

We can get back to the ever-flowing Higher Self in many ways.  Spending time in nature (like my real existence on the river), listening to our intuition, meditating – all of these are ways to get to our inner river.  And when we do take the time to go inside, to visit that magical life-giving river, it is still the cure to our ills.

The more that we interact with our Higher Selves, the more easily we are known to ourselves again.  We can fully immerse ourselves into that river our Higher Self, choose to just skim the surface, or just look into it.  Any and all contact with this river, brings us back in touch with the real us, with our connection to Source.

Our river is always there, shimmering, and sparkling and flowing through our lives.  To follow our life path the most easily, we need to go with the flow of that river as much as we can.  For our best paths, we need to be connected to our Higher Self.  But no matter what we do, or how badly we screw up, we can never be totally lost to ourselves, even though it may feel that way.  Our Higher Self is a part of us and always will be.  We can always “find ourselves” by going back to that inner river.


Need to get back in the flow of your river?  I am here to help you get connected.  Email me at conduitofjoy@hotmail.com

Copyright 2010 : : Kara Thompson : : Conduit of Joy

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4 Responses to Take Me to the River

  1. This is a very beautiful piece. I have been trying for sometime after some trying times to get back to this center in life. Reading your post gives me hope. Thanks so much and I look forward to reading more.

  2. conduitofjoy says:

    Thanks for your kind words, and for sharing that it gave you hope. I know you will make it back, and I’m sending you a huge burst of energy to start you back on that path.


  3. Kelly says:

    Hi Kara,

    I am new to your blog and just read this today but wanted to share with you how inspiring it was for me. I just read a book recently that re-introduced me to feeling my feelings, instead of avoiding them (something I’d been doing for years) and I realised reading this post of yours, what I was also avoiding all this time was indeed ‘my inner river.’

    This really did cause me to be lost to myself for a number of years and so your comment that ‘no matter what we do, or how badly we screw up, we can never be totally lost to ourselves, even though it may feel that way,’ gives me so much comfort and lets me know that I’m on the right track :) Because I feel like I know my higher self now, so much better than I ever did, I just didn’t realise it till you said it!

    Thank you :)

  4. conduitofjoy says:


    I can’t tell you how much your comment means to me. Thank you so much for sharing. To hope to even have that kind of effect you described, on one person, is the reason I write this blog. I know that others words have had such a healing effect on me, and to think that I may help another the same way fills me with joy to the point of tears. Thank you so much for that. :)

    I’m so glad to hear you are back in touch with yourself. I went through a long period of denial of myself, and it was so bleak and really heart-breaking in some ways. But as much as I hate to say it, it was probably necessary.

    Keep taking small steps each day to get closer to your higher self, and soon you will be effortlessly floating along in the flow.

    If you ever need/want a reading to get you going more in the right direction I am here. I will also have features like “Answers from the Universe” where you can get some free individualized answers about getting closer back to your higher self.

    Much love,

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