“The Thousand” – Kevin Guilefoile
I have long wondered about the connection between music and intuition. I have been interested in why so many professional intuitives, myself included, have hobbies or careers as musicians. I know professional intuitives that have been opera singers, choristers, lead singers for rock bands and more.
Long before I was consciously using my intuition, I sang. I sang all the time when I was by myself, as well as in lots of classical choirs, jazz combos and with rock bands. Any opportunity I could find to sing, I sang. It wasn’t something I just liked doing, I absolutely loved it. It was more like something I had to do, that I was compelled to do. It pretty much consumed my life, not in a bad way, but I just wanted to do it all the time.
I took singing lessons, and singing courses in high school, and university which I excelled at. In fact, I totally identified with singing, it became one of the ways I self-identified – Kara the Singer.
So where am I singing today? I’m not singing anymore.
Apart from the occasional duet with the radio, I’m not singing in any “serious” or consistent way today. If you would have told this to the Kara of 1987, or 1993, or even 1997, she would have laughed at the thought of herself not singing. She would have argued with you that it would be impossible to actually be Kara and not be singing. But here I am, not singing.
When I was in my late twenties, and wondered if I should keep singing, professional type way, and experimentally made a conscious decision to stop. Starting the day I stopped, a tiny whisper started in my head that just wouldn’t go away. It was bugging me day and night. It was saying “Go sing”. It bugged me all the time, every hour, and sometimes every few minutes. This made me crazy until I literally couldn’t stand it anymore, and started singing again.
A description of intuition from professional intuitive Andrea Hesse (who was formerly an opera singer!) finally made the penny drop for me. She was describing the process of your own intuition speaking to you. She says “The voice [of intuition] is persistent, but not insistent”. Now that I listen to my intuition consciously and regularly, it dawned on me that this exactly what intuition does.
Intuition is the tiny persistent whisper that just keeps suggesting something over and over again, until or unless you use your free will to actually do it. It doesn’t force you to do anything, but for those things you would benefit from, it suggests over and over again, in a very tiny, quiet voice.
It will keep bugging you until you follow the advice being offered, or persistently ignore it. It doesn’t insult you or say it in a negative way. It just says things like “Go sing” over and over again, until you actually do it or shut it down. If you do what is suggested, it is nicely silent until the next time you need it.
I finally figured out that I probably don’t sing anymore, because I consciously bring forth my intuition in my writing, and by doing intuitive readings. The intuitive connection I have now is actually the same voice, my intuitive voice. This is my same connection to God/Higher Self. I now believe that singing was my easiest and best way of unconsciously connecting with God at that time in my life. I wasn’t a fan of organized religion, but I still hungered for my connection to Source, and it was there in singing.
I loved the feeling I got when I sang. It was the feeling that I was a vessel, partly filled with me, and partly with a Higher Source. I remember being on stage singing a Baroque solo, and feeling the moment when the Higher Source came into me. I can recall the glorious feeling throughout my body when I just became a delivery system, a vessel, for that Higher being to deliver its musical message to the audience. It was my voice, but I was not the one directing it anymore. My vocal training and talent were helping it transmit, but I was really just a tool of the Divine.
The feeling I had in my body and in my soul at that time, was just pure bliss. It really was like a slice of Heaven. No wonder I always wanted to sing!! It was my all natural high, and I just wanted to feel that way all the time.
But there was a downside. Since I didn’t know how to ground or even that I needed to ground, in order to handle that kind of power surge, I often crashed after lots of singing. After a weekend of singing and being so “up”, I often became ill. Although I loved the feeling of creating music with others in choirs, I needed alone time to re-ground. It is interesting how singers instinctively know how to do things like eating to bring themselves “down” after performing. If I would have known that I needed to ground myself, and how to ground in a healthy way, my experience would have been much different.
Looking back now, in the context of the bigger picture, I think one of the reasons I loved singing so much, was that it was a great way for me to experience being in touch with the Divine. I suspect my ego and mind wasn’t ready at that time to accept being an intuitive. Totally aside from the intuitive aspect, I loved singing and it brought me joy, and made other people happy, and I had many amazing experiences and formed many amazing friendships.
I’m not suggesting that all of you singers have to go out and do intuitive readings for people. But I do think that as a singer, if you wanted to you, you have a head start in developing your intuition consciously. You already know the feeling of connecting with the Divine, and so you already have an instant shortcut. If you want to develop your intuition to use in all areas of your life, you are already ahead of the pack!
So now I’m dying of curiousity singers….What do you think? What is your experience with singing and your experience of the Divine? Please share in the comments! I am particularly interested in hearing from all my friends that I know from my singing days!
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